Decisions Had To Be Made

I had to make a decision…

A couple of weeks ago I had to make a decision, and it wasn’t the easiest nor the greatest one I’ve ever had to make.  I know I made the right decision for our family, and for our immediate finances, but I’m not ecstatic about it.  I just hope I made the right decision for my sanity.  this is going to work, and I will make this work.  Determination gets a person pretty far!

We all wish we could do our dream job…

Self Portrait of Danni Irene of Danni Irene Generational Imaging

I sure wish I could do my dream job! I’ve had a taste of it while I’ve been at home and I love it!  A lot of us wish we could work from home.  I’m one of those people.  I enjoy working on my own.  Being my own boss and making my self accountable.  That’s the hardest part of having your own business I think.  I’ve never really had a boss hovering over me, not even in the military.  I’ve had the odd “micro-manager”, but they usually don’t last long because they get stressed too quickly and burn out.  I was lucky with most of my jobs.  I’ve had good leaders that told you what needed to be done then left you and your team to do the job.  Very lucky indeed!

My Docs gave me their seal of approval…

If you haven’t read my first blog post, hereI’ve been laid up for almost a year.  Last week my surgeons gave me their seal of approval and a clean bill of health.  I can now return back to work.  I knew, and in a way wanted this day to come.  When you are laid up and have physical limitations on what you can do, you sometimes feel like you’re not pulling your weight.  And if you’re anything like me, you hate that feeling! Even more than not being able to do your dream job.

Well, I was released from my doctors on April 21st.  I knew it was coming and I had to make a decision on what I was going to do next.  Decisions had to be made! And soon!  Our next rent payment is due the 1st of June.  The questions I had to ask myself were:  Do I work locally in another field?  Do I drive for another company locally?  Since this is something I have a lot of experience in.  Or, do I go back over the road with my husband?  So, let’s look at each of these questions separately.

Do I work locally in another field?

Should I learn a new job in another field?  I don’t think this is a good option.  The only other field I’d want to work in is photography.  This would be a good option if it paid well.  Working as a second shooter for another photographer or for another photography company wouldn’t pay enough to get our bills caught up, let alone to get us out of debt.  It would be necessary for me to have another job to make ends meet.  Also, if I were working for another photographer would I be able to have my own photography business and customer base?  Some are very picky about the competition working for them.

Do I drive for another company locally?

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Semis in an Iowa Truck Stop in B&W

I have thought about driving for our company locally, but they already have established local drivers.  So, it would be more beneficial for me to drive for another company locally.  I’ve done this job before in the Chicagoland area, and it’s a lot more hassle than what it’s worth.  Plus, I would be starting at the bottom of the pay scale.  The main reason why I dislike my job now is because I hate the traffic, and the unsafe and inconsiderate drivers currently on our roads.  If I were to drive locally in the Dallas/Ft Worth area, dealing with those issues would be 10 times worse.  I would go bat shit crazy in less than 6 months.  Even though hubby says I’m already there.  What does he know?  Right?!

Do I go back to my old job and drive over the road with hubby?

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Rolling down The Road

If you’ve read my blog post of “Time Sure Flies, How Do You Catch It?” you’ve probably figured out that I’ve decided to go back on the road with my husband.  It’s the most logical thing to do right now.  It’s a job that I know.  There is no learning curve to deal with, and I can jump right in and start making money.  Our employer (my past employer) is happy to take me back and have us as a team again.  That’s a big plus!  

It won’t be for very long…

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My cell phone, journal and pen

I wonder if I’m telling myself a lie when I say that, or if I’m going to hold my feet to the fire!  The goals I have,  I want to achieve in the next 3 years.  I want to be the best damn portrait photographer in Texas within 3 years.  If I surpass that, then more power to me! I plan on being a trucker for another year.  Within that time frame I plan on photographing wonderful and interesting people and showing the world how beautiful they are! I don’t have to be at home to do this.  With all of the technology that is out there today, I can do this while driving across this great country of ours and meeting the people in it.  I am WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR!!

Have you had to make a tough decision lately?  If you had, did you have to put your plans or goals on hold? Life is full of decisions every day and sometimes they’re tuff, and sometimes they’re easy.  Humans are a resilient species.  Even if we choose the wrong decision, we usually learn from them and carry on.  And, that’s what I’ll do if this was the wrong decision for me, at least I think it’s the right decision for the family.

I Can Do This!  Take life by the horns and enjoy it! Enjoy the day and take lots of photos for the memories!! Life is too short not to!

 “I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.”

Jimmy Dean

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